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A present for my readers - poetry and "clear/cut" from 1990

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Mar. 14th, 2006 | 06:46 pm

A poetry editing journal from 1990. Yes, I used to write "a lot" of poetry. Also, a longish "cut" piece created 15 years ago - which is in fact about the same thing the rest of my poetry is about, oddly enough. It's from a book about nuclear power stations - oddly unsettling and funny, sort of. A use for the "pre" tag!!!! I suggest printing it out, if you like it at a glance - I promise there are some fun and cool lines.

I hope you all find something that hits the spot here. My favourite is between the cuts.


Poetry Editing Journal May 1990 to October 1990

I forget what to dream and become
ridiculous, not drawn
in, refuse the inaccurate
morning's white shell, some one tells

me it will be hot again
as if imparting secret formulae




expression moves through delirium
not our area, not by definition
the noise of blank desires (fingers? ness?)
getting their share of the dark




no will here to be
set adrift in these streets forever
I think I must have shattered
my nerves on the busterhood of improximity

I came here to make myself
an agent of something personal
to open up history, close
some old, spread pages

now, poised for becoming
at the mercy of some unfathomable rage
facts hold limitless sway, like a drunk
invalid constitution
a large and unforgiving wave
night's fat disembodied handedness

does the institution seem
granitic or just
solid enough to dispose of
a few and then recede
into social history?

the spirit of an ocean
blue poncho from a lost book
of hours, resolutions
inaccessible to us

an unmapped river of sleep flows
through me, silt-laden and tardy
lazy and hollow to the endless coast





this brightness, I am sure
hides more than it
reveals
what we should be
grateful for

perfection was a few green hours
in a park in the middle of the day
before the knifely clatter of intention
deferred, this infiltrated
and porous apprehension
vicious and simple
habitualness of cars

where would the boys
be, the girls go?...





the empty sack
in my head, brown ghost
of thought, the flip side of anticipation
remorse for lost
suspicions

an ocean's worth
of dreaming in a person-sized space...





one day succeeds
another. the practise, the guard
changes but the standing
orders are inalterable

I imagine a man living
alone in the midwest on a large
private property, sinking
posts for many years without reason

similarly we drive
our stakes deep
into the ground, while about
us whisper
the sandy sounds of decay...





when I remember the dark
moist ignorance of childhood I
flinch back to this superiority
of grids

I know behaviours difficult
to justify now may come
from active, disguised principles
of which I am not
aware

except in convulsive moments of clarity
and the primal murmur of the contortionists





it appears the spirit in deafness breaks
without sound, and gone so abruptly
now one infers
the loss
a second nature

do you feel the regalled
moving of snakes in their night
dampness, the smoky caverns
odor of wood and leaves
rotting?

I don't want these mundane
dreams, but they come

for example I thought I saw
the craziest woman possible laughing
herself to redemption in Victoria Park
clearly delusional
or another, unquestionably sane
dancing barefoot one evening across the
lawns of Water Street

I bet she's dead now, and here's why
I've read the notice





what was it but
expenditure?

I guess solidity where there's none
open fields for dancers
and singers, glowing silver at dawn
the sparse horizon

the sky will
not show
anything. no one looks
like us, exactly. no one
recognizes the skill
we live simply by

the sky's a couple
miles wide, the ground
a disk slightly smaller

we play for the time
being in our lives
spared mariners






the domestic, unprintable
rage the unmentionable sun makes
us confess everywhere
its yellow fairness

someone twining together the strings that remain
climbs over to us at the end
with all our missed correspondences, our dead
spirit, the living directory of letters...

darkness of connection
unexplicated, the drama of looking
away become habitual
soliloquy

spying into the disguise





the more real a thing
the more insidious


any plan that ignores
so much manufactures
its own doom
and takes another with it

these derelictions of tongue among
choking lush
fertility, a quietly returned
wilderness, the recovered
anarchy of being
in the midst of order, but dammit

evening coming, a blue poncho
deflates, the picnic
tables hum inhumanly

others and their darknesses
avid for conversation

the rules of the cage, your corner
undisturbed by___________________





if we were judged alone
at the points
of hesitant, pre-emptive contact with
the world, we would seem
freckled with light where the globe
inside achieves
surface
we might be spoken of as strange skies, sinister
flashes of deep lightning
counted as bellicose weathers

we could be read like weather
in those days, laid
out like easy topography




some naked reality the ways
wind us to
what is not skirted

in case of fiction lean
to fore the frenzied potential
of refusing

the tedious ease of making
one's weigh

a few dilly-dallies and then
open highway miles of uninterrupted galore!
occasional getting of
where one is
the great be yawned
why skies are so recent, so amateur

there are, for example, still holes
all through me...

the broken surface and broken
deep, the shame of learning
so late irreplacability
of those hours, those years
that slept with us in some vacant
gesture of correctness

you see, there is just now such a
darkness in my sleeves, and
gravel in my vocabulary




recently, there has been evidence
of former greenery under the blue and great
falling palm of distance
rigid extensities descending like a scale
toward some profound imbalance

thinly disguised conjunctions abscond
into forest, the brown floor of sleep




only when we fall
from rules to the anarchy
of poetry and pointless
desire, from the gregarian
to the gregarious

a gift refused
becomes toxic, freedom
in an iron box





suddenly you appeared on the streets of this
industrial town

three tenses of the will
intension, apprehension, comprehension
where the desire is
immersed, where observing
from a certain distance, and where it is certain
nameless, refined

so big it means to not be there at all





autumn languishes toward us
the sun is a prize
above the boats
that sleep off frozen shores

I thought of you while those drums
talked the city to abeyance





another waiting in different lightness
all the trees and waters have become
token of the dead
generosity future harbors
and big markets describe such
grey orations we expect
just enough, believing
almost nothing





the legendary directness
of necessity obtained
in the cells, impulse
of indisposition, a rage
of filing cabinets

still it come
the private and secular
bondage of knowing
too little





the oracular
simplicity our duty embeds
to correct the tragic
misreading that topples
music, regimes of rhythm

we are untrained guards along the watchtowers





an ocean of unknown propensities
labors beyond us. it's work
is toward the forever in which we are
cold adrift dishevelment





around the tables the dance
of our imperfect desires

a bit of blonde
on your indelible pillow





I am
mythed and uncharted yet, empty
sleeped. there are necessities
somewhere in the waste
places where rails
distance everything equally

parallel steps on equivalent roads
to one industrial cartage





to portage fear, the desire
a lake beds
between the grey monks of rock

we hear here of eloquent
silent chambers, brown universities
in green clothes

two dark humps across the water
dragons asleep?

a rushing
thunder gallops beneath the beige
cranial flats

the sound of night beating
its families





last faultiness, patient matter of the brain
remember you were able to smile without being stupid
before the mute anxiety of hands, knuckles so recently
entered into their frozen dexterities

back in the bruise of
my singularity, in
the daily initiation of
what was all but
impossible

we claimed that compulsive sadness ours
as well, the broken well
undisclosed, which seems
bottomless until we try to drink from it




this is all i meant by the disappolegetic
nerviness. it is sickeningly easier
to get what we want than to get
what we need

even then
a desperate sightlessness of desire
stymies us with
ourselves, the repetitive noise
of the tight little myths of our time
the crackpot myths of our time

the terrible, monotonous occasion it is




brilliance of leaves, inimitable incense
we move together
through sunlight at the weedy
edge of the field
a sun we could only have
conjured out of some ultimate past




on the bus to the far beach
let me peel you socks
the hallucinogenic cries of the sea birds
ocean will have us
dark thing...




the hunt is to bigger
nothing of fat, silent achievement
not trying to seduce anyone, read
the myths again. the light
is trying to seduce us, rather
broad glint in highway daylight

stagy cage, our ocean




under vision, laboring
at attire, understatement
hyperbole, anything but
the ridiculous savagery forestalled
lives find themselves overt becoming
a clench of medication and desire

the blue rituals of dance




unrecoverable knives and saucy deadpans
sitting in a paisley
of distraction

signature of something foreign
inside me, a black connection
with exile


danger is always
for me insufficiency
of desire, where one does not go
far enough and is lost

we go where it is easier to live
than not to and come back
with distance inside, join
the great society again




soon we will be nearer
the precise cathedral of brown rock
its ritual that never included us

even in closets of sea we will be
unaccepted, changed totally
the strange wrack, the rich
and shaken seeing

worthless log of questionable sanity
we were supposed to be
inimitably wise by now, unreservedly
unfathomable





nightfall at old bachelor park
only the crows...

nosey clothes and clipboard voices
of census, who's left of us
all and sundry
accosted
future swinging shut
like a ledger

these restive nativities of insight...





as it is, anything one can name
has a foreign, legislated feel

what legitimacy cannot be
spoken? now I know they exist
skies above the road
a sentence travels, the
mariner's appraisal

night deepens, suggestives
out in their lots, one
disappears oneself

I am becoming something impossible
necessary and sudden
abilities become dead
serious...

suddenly, I realize what we are
making in blind urgency
of ourselves

too much of what I know
strictly to be true
is also unwanted and much
desire might be
false, in ways not
evident. I think
I dream this display a thousand times
before setting a finger to it

there are only 2 quantities some
days -- one, and the infinite





art stops. cage
and his music
of the world
the wind harp
built in space
inside, resonating

pebble consequences

I want to minimize
me, but I am getting
bigger, targety






small vanished
blood, brother
sister

day gone to hulks
empty hulls, husks
there is the dry
rattling, rasping throat
pit, the arid talking days
what wears us like sand
poetry editing journal





there are only two quantities some days
one and the
infinite...



clear/cut
now seems
   presented with
                a
         corollary
               black
bounds of possibility that
                        on earth
                          lie
the future always contains
         a mockery of

       all our plans
              and observations
  carried with us to
                 harder
                   bruising

  some other figure
tomorrow

      most
have become
stations
passersby
forced to slow down and move
                         down
                     time inside
                           approach
              human constructions
with safety measures
assess the
     basis they
will not pronounce

excitation by
samples
    plate
      of the
     showed
problems around
          some new
          fraction of
        uses

        trundle across
     their beds at night and
argue about what they should
    storm

  appeared
  they were
unable to exercise
interaction
     of us, and indeed the whole
      is immersed in a bath of
                sun
rocks and houses around us
within our bodies

             similar
              alternative
aircooled concrete vaults
the absentminded
     ivory
       anachronistic
mandate of the
constructed

        that
     contaminated
observation
became critical.  No member of the public
                       could go on and
emitted from
      the process
view this unproductive
       out
  city

  the
    lapse without

        one curious and controversial
        war
    journey
      through
          effort
          was
the experiment
           the
    convenient way
    had been
        active

ultimate proliferation
           is a risk
                  design
             construction
   sets a maximum level
 of the plant and leaves
decisions like these were taken
                  and lie behind
                     the safety
                     problem of
                          the present

                    levels of
                      routine
from all over the world
  still devices of
 commercial
    fusing
      around one
  such
     fourth state of
              walls

  more and more
     situation was not
    an open market
   on days when
    the laboratory
      may have
   determined
  secrets
            endorsed the
whole structure of
      the future

            power
             evoked
             movement

             ignore
the direction in which
                  it plods on
             established long ago

          next year
may undergo
  the present
years
from the laboratory

   future the cost of
any marked amount

       age is now
built across
   waste
    safety spelled out
emergency

                                 philosophy
                            generally said
           encourages design
    containment

according to those manuals
                  philosophy is simply
                  that any accident may
    then allow the utility to devise
      restrictions

        but there was some more
to be done before the
           combining
   theoretical
in the basement

                                    is scared
                                  this book

          our present
           the human
     will survive this
          prop
newspapers
clear that what people wanted was not just another
                             who had tried to look
                              and who was willing to talk
                    any more than
                    a fossil of the star
              like all fossils, it is
           the demand for
           some point

time was being
  out more and more
 the whole world
   now past
    has become
          childhood
        the vanished
          reaction
          required
unlimited quantities
    history
    the victors and
    repercussions
                         a slightly greater power at an
earlier stage might have expelled
enough
One more
difference
  a trillion years
              of the public being injured
         is calculated as 1

disquieting conclusion must be qualified
it should be possible to detect increases in
                      analysis

             a way of
           experiment
    had turned
                at this point
                  language
       tripped
the most serious event

                   chance
        moderating the
          artificial
            prosaic

                   results
             a slowing
                  like
               work
      toward
          time

                                  power
                            seemed to have
  at least one cinema in every city
and thousands of people
      indeed
     followed

     administration
          was simply
     wartime pressure
     organization
                    others
             contained
tended to react
         in the form of
   throwing some
   practise

 organization
 was also
 field and
 found
 answering

     to hold or contain
any material substance
          powerful
       containment occurred

                                         the public
                                       technique

people felt
    immediate
        life had become
      numbers
  with a central
misunderstanding

       a runaway state
of human errors
      withdrawn from
  the power surge that followed
sufficient to rupture some
    primary
sequence
that sent all the instruments offscale

               that led to the
            prevented
                   mandate

               lessening
          implications of
active material

look at several
            accidents
     probe into the
              editorial

an irreversible
central
technology
   examined
our limited knowledge of
                 thing
                    the hazard from
                             linear hypothesis

               in detail
               what we know
what we can feel comfortable about
            lie

treat the individual
           offered only
   products
        the controlled
   possible
for human use
  deliberate
  effect of such partial information
                  leakage

             supervisor
             leaving
          warning
       warning
        supervisor

show to the public the accident
                operators

        with something
        such as the value of
perimeter
what the statisticians
   chance
   running it is
without any significant history of
                precision
                maintained
experts
  fracture
    building
              office
             of death
            to classify
         risks that are
    statistics
        critical
 carelessness
operating
     poor
     systems would be
      a planned disaster

                                 allow it to escape
                             initiated

with the
       giving
moment there is little in the way of legislation
                society must operate
          abandonment of an established
                       development
                 under these auspices
           completed
                    use
                       balance
                         one
                         clear power
                    in the world
                       measuring
         begins to look less disastrous

     procedure
   control
below
would raise
calandria
casual and calm

developing and exploiting
secrecy was
        creation
becoming visibly impartial

           something is
              educated
             concerned
analysis because it can lull
          the true
        manageable
        become outmoded
           discovery

addition of
     violent
fragments of
     excess energy
furnace
factor in the
     equations

the operator is
  outside
the overwhelming
            damn thing work

     not beyond
   black
using

enforcement must be seen to operate
pump that supplied
sequence of events
automatically
     as a routine mechanical
    morning

numbers seem to come out of the blue and
        great deal
     when they are nothing

     there is no such
    level of
       life in general
upper limits set by the
   logical

there is hardly
     more or
        only

        one
      in its
        one

our first
  change
     aberration

   use
     must
answer these questions

                actual facts
                based on an extension of what
  can never take into account
what is yet to be
thought up by the
           impossible

    effects of
      effects multiply each other
    many things
            are only one part of the puzzle
   a given
 other
    the
difference between

        spare
   weight of
     example
    but
      we give
        forms
            first
    vital raw material in the production of
                information
             from waste
             reports
        libraries

routine
    raised
  this point
of the heavy
chain

 where
has evolved to be
     like
   countries
the effects of an
   emergency
  through the large
 potential

      the whole business
   face of its practitioners
guaranteed
some underground
           ransom and the killing
     of innocent people

     course of a day quite a lot

holes could be
  implosions
         And
  imagination
   future

such a network leads to
    differing numbers
    would be created
         picked
      and directed

amounts of the
    field, through concentration
    could be increased to constitute
          for many people
       lingering death
       a largescale
    feeding
would be sufficient

greatest threat to life
can be incorporated
           in
     substance
   heavier than
        numbers
         are

       there is a
    food chain
  imperative

  It seems
body
administering
routine operation

each year a
     jigsaw
 theory about our resistance

          since life
long ago took steps to establish
                       the repair process
                                 twin strands of
                                    information
                           each molecule is
the action of a
    person
   building in
             self

         before    has gone
                    with the crowd

     havoc
after exposure
    began
a period of drowsiness and
         a matter of
       convulsions

rise to
  become an object
         did not quite work out

      own body
  the tragic death
      unimagined
         burial
  as megalithic
  tourists

   why such
negations
 the long run it comes down to
                        the needs
             the implications
      they wanted
         implications

  a common
      reduction in
           alternative
     rational and informed
      alternatives
   to haunt us?

            dishonest
          consumption
similar in behaviour to
         bones
would therefore find
foolish enough
human bones lasts a lifetime

   announcements
the news that
damaged

                   the news
also occurred in the account

their presence was not always welcomed

   fear
became suspicious of
     carrying a sample
                  a burn on his chest
                  the real world
                simple but very abstract
             could not resist
                    the end
a sentence that has turned out to be prophetic
                   with bodies

                     may not be
                        what
                   we did not

                       serious and damaging
                                      body
                           is secretive
withholds vital information
      is
handinglove with
               that
                  network
           hard to answer
           source
           the human body
           parts
           of the
                each

       big
     country
how resistant to
        watering down

   our eyes
directed to
our support and
    the future
           speeds of
considerable disadvantage

always remain
      feel that
        involving
        this way
many people
      centralized
must be brought together
hundred million
the
matter
of steel
must be
fields

can
mines were another example of that

     for several years
transported to this central interim
simply could not exist in our world
        it exploded, scattering
                       was born
                       body
                 was created
            in the field of
            the role
                                              the
                                            interim

                                             bubble

the discovery
could darken a
        naked eye
              similar
            to the sun
                    of
            the great accidental discoveries

               samples
                   that also contained
                            thought that
                          was a result of
                              neglect

                  energy
                  could be
                     held
                could be unleashed
   to symbolize everything wrong with
       control
     possible
in a continual state

                          build
           these regulations and
      be examined

        final control
          site
regulated by the
           limits
             examined in detail by
               accident

                   hedge
              effects are
   acceptable
 effects

        together
        ever
        system as
             system

                          the smooth
                               comes down to
                              emphasis on security
and restricted flow of information to the public

                                         society
                                 must be smelted
                            must be
                       paid back

                                      force
                                  through
                             theory

     constrained by the fields of
                   reacting at
the interior of our sun

a trigger to your
                 decade
             as common as

  sensible decisions
   it is important to go beyond
                      and hunt for
            bearing in mind that
   may not always correspond to
   intuitions

  decision should be
               suggested
                   deep in our
             words

        the study of
  people who have
           included
people who had been subjected to
                 repeated
   inflammation of the
           tables

                      colonies
                  between these extremes
a complex situation in a constant state of flux

       natural background
               from
     one house to another
 could expose us to a
level greather (sic) than the total

       impersonality
  began to reject the rat
                  way of
  dislikes united

  that plague conventional
 would not be without some
            fast
    extension of our present
               way to
greater participation

         is a considerable danger
        in the
     suspicious
          group
       determined to
                   its part
                 what it sees

     they
informed
on all their endeavours
              once
activated by a love of
                  choice
           strained by internal squabbles
forced to eject some of their members and a large amount
of energy

friends learned that evening
            of the
                principle of
              the plateful without

themselves the nagging
                something
       levelled against
                    mandate

It decays into other
     selves
       distributed throughout the
                          waiting

              we expect
         doubt,
         hazard
                                risk analysis
                                  confidence
             all the assumption

has some merit
    necessary
          devices in the centre

         the world
           listened
    happened
        developed a policy of
                     words

  what was this
about the salts of
 ten more years

     Suppose
        the trap
     of nails

everything looks like pure
        device

no longer be useful or even relevant
 uncertainty
a fairly stable and reliable system
                    for many
                     designed to offset
                 an active way

the dimly remembered
           needs only
                   cloud

   was bound for
           where    was to be
           long with
       other sources
             will
             weeks that
             dream,
  how remotely
  hung.

things could go wrong
                 and each area
         would need the attention
                     I hope that I have
                                energy
              already strained
       awaiting a final puff of air
the form of hope

some effort will be made in the direction
the future may contain

   future
    has a number
      in
one particular
flexibility of
   increasing

   There is a strong possibility
within                and the whole structure of
             improvement
     totally
     in the hope of fully meeting it
   the possibility of
               good measure

               only three particles
                               are
                              fact
                          until some
          story we shall anticipate

trying to discover how
   to form
  stable
        time

the chain (and
         pendent ones) depend
                    without weakness
                  on the
             unthinkable

situation is limited
subject
  its true significance
   emotional fervour that is
     the end
judgement about
the position
           they may not have

           blood stains and fingerprints
      of mind
           reached by listening

  These are the facts
the little girl from Toronto
fears for
against this
 nightmare
little headway
   natural
      traces of
              earth
                   beginning of
                     ground
      stones of our office
                this scenario
an increasing
            turn of the
                 construction
    our mousetrap
one day,
  questions extended beyond
                   and were
                   safe

abstract
      work
          in
             charged
              structure
               what caused
              the big question

               watching over the
          installations
        operating
         rather impure
             corridors outside

                that
                  interior
               dislodged
                one stage
           without
               enough
              building

           their imaginations
          a responsible and
             final
        ethical ground

     these early
giants of
bucketful

conversations
visited    but they talked of other matters
       these
unreactive elements
    missing
        the field

feelings that
they are fears
moving

remember the hula hoops
standing in the
Periodic Table

that day in
    thunder
power and
 place
affected by
     recalling the actual
                    decisive
           morning of the accident

     that morning
     centimetre by centimetre
was working in the dark
     that could never be tested

             job of driving
   back into the main
             this return
this century and the symbol

     become that equation of
                         the
       better place to begin

        age
knowledge and a desire
                age is to return
the exclusive source
        one of the options open
                            and
                          clear
               the world
        we do not
      position
       far from simple
        following

                         place
                 the earth where it originally came from
                          life will result in

                              our fingertips powerful

understand the nature
                a few
              evolved
                 into
as public health
      died, inside or outside
    removed without
            event of
          course

immediate effect
      worry about
        the longterm
      disorders

we leave this bleak
                 well to take a second look
                                    and
                                offer
                   the possibility of
                 true
          standards

                 in the future
                answer
               show that
                  for the public
                   safe
                  was not
               good luck

realize
innocence and
be always tied together
harmless
finally

       informal
people living close

       groups have
     each other

think about this picture
 being bombarded

     falling to the floor
of the accident

       the great mysteries of
  power followed   unlocking
         use

   expose the
many questions to be answered about
               formation
     they tend to become absolute
                      illusion
                of certainty
   somehow become
             risk
    the illusion that things are
             described
difficulties, what
chance
killed when crossing
   The idea

  what could happen in the event
                 we shall be
                 such an accident

   critics
  from within
have been made
proportional
  probability of death
   and
     assumption
the mechanism of
 addition
   causative agent
             even in the air

  significance
some informed
starting point in
     the atom itself
what people believed
  had been
documents
levels of background
              justification

there is little reliable data below
                     nothing

             understand
           will first
      everything
     may include
       soft
         newspapers
    and life in a small
energy that animates
      out of a feeling of dissatisfaction

                   someone who is
        jumps from the bus and runs
          the hope that    can make
            the dream of
                    land
                transmission
             through the countryside
         outpourings
               the daily tides

            soft
          small windmills, cars
        wood, and a
        home
      with this
          accepting

potentially lethal
            signing
      the first
      system
          the
        first
     idea of
   scale is
       visions

     idea
  itself
should
    have
all of us

the philosophy of
assumption
 year after year
could move in other directions
        intensive
      be more appropriate
              aware
        watching
             will be
             golden

             far below
speculation
we know.  It



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date: Mar. 16th, 2006 12:28 am (UTC)
Hogwarts: A History

one of my friends really liked your poems!

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